What having kids has done….
23 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
I have always been pretty much of a free spirit. Live for the moment, day by day, no planning-just doing, etc. Recently, I have been thinking about my age. I’m 37, which isn’t old old, but it is time to start getting serious about my health and what not. This is something I have never really cared about. I have always indulged. I was always fearlss about dying. Now I’m not.
I fear dying now. A tremendous terrible dreading fear. Not because of the unknown after death, but because of my children. What would become of them? Would they be scarred?
Funny how those little people change you…….
The flowers are almost dead…
19 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
Well, it has been a while since I have blogged anything. Much has happened. Most notably, I have gone through a whole pregnancy and had my second child, Emma Elisabeth. She is beautiful, and a blessing to us all.
A weird thing about me:
Being female, I often get flowers for a gift for different occasions, (i.e, Valentine’s, my Birthday, etc…). I take care of all flowers I get and they usually keep for quite some time. I had Emma on the 9th of March and here it is, the 18th and some are still kickin. I know it wont be for long. As they die, I am reminded that the special occasion I got these flowers for is over. I am another year older, I have been married for another year, or, in this case, another chapter in my life is about to begin. Derek will be going back to work, I will need to formulate schedules that will fit Ethan, Emma, and me. I am currently in a psuedo honeymoon phase right now with a newborn! Anyway, I found it ironic how the ultimate demise of these flowers reminds me that I made it through another cesarean birth that I dreaded for so long. I also looked forward to when I was able too look at my new baby- and I got that too.
The flowers are almost dead and life marches on…….
